https://www.newsweek.com/brett-kavanaugh-accuser-testimony-damaging-republicans-1127225
https://www.politicususa.com/2018/09/19/republicans-fear-kavanaugh-sex-allegations-will-hurt-them-in-midterms.html
https://www.esquire.com/news-politics/politics/a23318062/brett-kavanaugh-hurt-republicans-midterm-elections/
Twitter and Facebook are full of women telling of their own stories of assault at a young age that are much like Dr. Blasey Ford's and of the pain, fear, shame, and lasting damage they've endured. Other women are trying to comfort and support them. And yes, we're filled with rage.
Here's a poem of my own to explain to these men what they're dealing with and what they've unleashed.
CONFESSION
is good for the soul, they tell us,
but what of the body, pressed
into service against its will but
lacking
ability to say no, being female
and young and poor and only
“some little half-breed girl,
you know what they're like,
born fucking,” implicit permission
of the white man's imagination?
Backed into corners, pulled into
alleys,
too small, body still growing,
to put up a good fight against
grown-man muscle,
coming away with bruises, black eyes,
broken
jaw one time, but fighting hard and
blind spitting crazy
enough to make it not worth their while
to consummate. The refuse-to-remember
first time
taught that fear-backed rage, that
cunning
need to find anything at hand to
inflict pain,
make them stop, lamp, end table, chair,
boom box,
teeth to arm, stomp on instep, kick to
groin.
Grown now, safe, heavy, elder,
if my surroundings smell wrong,
they suddenly flick me back—old, bad,
dangerous times. I forget I'm not small
and powerless. Fury fills my veins, and
eyes
search for something to transform into
weapon,
whole body throbbing with desire
to punish, inflict pain, drive off,
destroy.
I walk through the world, a quiet lie.
Such dark lives within me
like a hidden serpent, rage-dragon,
while I politely order tea.
So powerful. Thank you, Linda.
ReplyDeleteThank you for reading, Judith! And welcome home!
ReplyDeleteWell done, Warrior
ReplyDeleteThank you, Kathy.
ReplyDeleteSo powerful! I'm 71 years old and it's been over 50 years since having been molested by more than one family member. And I can still remember the details and despite thousands of dollars in therapy, moments like this bring up all the old memories and especially the feelings of shame and humiliation and fear. And though my abusers are dead and supposedly gone, they are still in my head, heart, and soul and they can still hurt me all over again. I look to warriors like you for strength to go on -- because thoughts of suicide still plague me despite all the love from my precious husband and children.
ReplyDeleteYes, those details stay imprinted on our brains. This whole Kavanaugh thing has been triggering for so many of us. Sick to our stomachs and full of rage, we have watched the GOP dismiss the experiences and pain of all of us. A sad day for women and survivors of all kinds.
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